There is kind of this point in your life where who you are and who you want to be start to battle it out for the prime possition. The problem is that Im still trying to figure out what this end result is supposed to be. It's somewhere between extraordinary wife, super mom and ideal employee in an industry I never felt I fit the bill for.

I'm the type that hates to make mistakes or do something wrong which usually ends up making my life harder because it limits my growth potential. It's been hard for me to let that go but I'm really working towards it. I'm trying to let the art and soul take over which is what I fell in love with in the first place. I can't be so focused on the tangibles because they will come on their own when I shed myself of their stress.

I know exactly what needs to be done but I don't quite know how to do it. It's the part of who I am struggling so hard against who I will become. I'm driven and I'm determined. I will get there!

- N via iPhone

Today was one of those days that by the end of it you are emotionally spent but all you can do is lay in bed thinking about the stupid day when all you want is to go to sleep so the day can be over.

Truth be told, I'm having a harder time readjusting to being back home than I did adjusting to the Arizona move. It's really hard to leave your life that you made for yourself to go back to the place you were trying to escape from in the first place. We've been here for 6 months and one would think it would start to get easier but I find myself getting frustrated and stressed out over little things. Work is just that, work. My paasion for my job is fading and I'm feeling really uninspired right now. I'm really hoping that Monday brings new light to my eyes and helps to get me out of my funk.

I recently made a commitment to one of my trainers to start working towards my lesson certification as well as my advanced make up certification and I'm almost embarassed to see her next week knowing how I feel right now. I have so much going on in my head that I have this creative block right now.

I need to figure myself out. I see some heavy meditation in my future.

- N via iPhone

Im really super excited about this! Viva Glam is launching TWO new lipsticks and the launch has moved up from March to February and I believe they are going to be released on the 12th. There is Viva Glam Gaga and Viva Glam Cyndi for our two new spokesmodels Lady Gaga and Cyndi Lauper. For those of you who don't know, the series of Viva Glam lipsticks are our chairity lipsticks. The sales go to fund the MAC AIDS Fund. To date, we've raised and donated over 160 MILLION DOLLARS. The power of 7 lipsticks and 3 lipglosses, amazing! The two new colors are gorgeous. Gaga will be a bright purply pink and the Cyndi is a coral red. I am also proud to say that this was our first month working towards our comitment to DOUBLE our viva glam sales and we killed it!

There truely is a Viva Glam for everyone from a classic red to a lustery nude, please consider buying one the next time you need a lipstick. $14 goes a lot farther than you think to help those who are affected by this awful epidemic. We are talking groceries, meds, education... things that matter.

Here is the teaser photo for the launch!




Love Always,
Your Friendly Neighborhood MAC Artist